It was March 2019 and unknown to me today would be the day my world would never be normal again. As I watch Texas CPS take you away right in front of my eyes without even letting you take your favorite doll or your favorite blanket. Today was the day my life ended and my heart broke. It would become the most challenging year ever known to me. The year I spent most nights crying holding your picture close to my heart so I could sleep soundly,the nights I didn’t think I would make it through to see the morning come because the ache was so painful I didn’t want to see another day. The year I thought just ending it would ease the pain and let you have a better life,that you deserved a better life,a life I couldn’t make happen in my world since I spent countless nights going from couch to couch because I left the monster after you left in that car right in front of my eyes. It hasn’t gotten better but the pain has gotten easier. I will always be your mama and when your older I will tell you how I did my hardest to be there and protect you even when the monsters didn’t let me or want me in your life. You are my lifeline forever 💋

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